I do know how this happened and I also already told her. I don´t have problem with my story telling. The problem is I don´t feel anything while doing it. I may as well just read somebody´s journal. But back to the trust. Therapy is expensive for me it is private and I pay as I go (insurance works different in Europe). It is the same price for one session as my 5days food allowance. So I try hard to do things quick I can´t spend years in therapy. So I told her a lot already and now comes the trust building ...and that I can´t seem to figure out how to do.