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Originally Posted by Solepa
Yeah I guess that is my main problem I do not have much emotions going on in me. I switched them off completely in one point and I function without them for more then 10 years now. So I do use my brain mainly to guide me and I do think a lot but I do not feel a lot.
I have a good life now I study university, I work, I have long term serious relationship and then one day my body just rebels and my mind as well. So I had to do something about that I donīt like loosing control like that. Well donīt like is not the right term I ABSOLUTELY HATE it.
So I come to therapy for a quick fix. I wanted an analysis from T and solution. Hm she didnīt give me that... quite the opposite she said to be helped I have to get to some "deep myself" and it will take time.
So now I have a BIG PROBLEM: Do I want to go there? Do I have money to pay for it? How long does it take? Is it possible?? What happens where we go to this shut black box?.....and quite frankly Iīm scared.
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I can relate to the whole experience of emotions being shut down. When I began therapy I asked my T more than once, "Tell me again why we have to address emotions?" It just seemed so impractical - I can analyze and I can think pretty clearly so obviously, I thought, just apply some precision thinking to my situation and I'd be in good shape.
NOT!!!!!
Unfortunately (because we're impatient and it's expensive) it takes time. How long? Who knows? I have read a ton of books to help fast-forward my journey. Did the reading help? I have no idea.
But I did learn a lot about the brain, the mind and the mysterious 'process'.
Can you see the therapist less often - maybe once a month or twice a month? Would that be affordable? And can you supplement the T's help with reading?
Anyways, good luck.