oportunities don't always show up when we look for them. Some of the best ones fall into our laps when we least expect it. All of the feelings you are having sound connected to your depression, and it can be hard to fight your way out.

Many people change their majors in college several times before hitting on the right one. Taking some general classes in a lot of different areas may help you decide what you like and what you don't. What you are capable of is often greater than what you think your capable of. It may not be the right time for you to start school. It took me almost 11 years between graduation of highschool and going back and starting college. Depression had a lot to do with it. My high school grades were mediocre because I just didn't care, and i thought I was worthless and stupid. All I ever did was lay around thinking about death. Once I'd been in the job market for a while, I knew I didn't want to do that sort of work anymore. By then, the depression had lifted somewhat.

Don't underestimate yourself. You already realize that you have a depression problem, so consider many of those negative thoughts to be related to the depression. You may not be on the right medications as well. There are so many these days, both individual and combinations. I won't tell you to try and motivate yourself, because I remember how it felt, and frequently still does. Do the best you can with where you are at in life at the moment. Don't give up your dreams. Other people's opinions have no bearing on what you really can accomplish, and your own thoughts are currently clouded with depression. Dreams keep us going, whether we eventually realize them or not. You never know, yours may well come true in the future. When the time is right, you will take your opportunity and run with it. Believe in yourself. Tell yourself that you can do the things you want to do. It really doesn't matter how many come true. Constantly berating yourself adds up and becomes a self made barrier. Telling yourself that you are smart and able to do what you want may seem stupid, but if you hear it enough, you will start to believe it. (No, I'm not a motivational speaker idiot). If telling someone that they are worthless again and again can cause that person to become depressed and unable to function at the level they are capable at, then it makes sense that telling someone they are smart and capable over and over would have positive effects.

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