April is a tough month for me. The 7th, 23 years ago, my grandmother passed away. The 16th, a year later, my father passed away. And tomorrow, would have been my 4 year wedding anniversary if my fiancee hadn't passed away the December before. So I have been really focuse on what I am going to do to get through these times. I have no clue. The 7th, I isolated and was not a very pleasant person to be around, which is not like me. Even when I a depressed, I am still the life of the party and the one who cheers everyone up. I never show my true feelings. But have been walking out of meetings and therapy because i cannot deal with this right now. So I am not really sure what to do...