It comes about when something or someone gets on his nerves and he decides to transfer that on me... He doesn't really try to gain insight, but it's something that runs in his family and he was diagnosed in his early teen years. Honestly, I don't see it that bad in his mother or grandmother, but perhaps they're taking a more active role in managing. Plus I'm not there 24/7 either....

I ended up seeing him today, actually! It definitely has made my day ... kind of hard when you don't see somebody. Luckily I got him in a decent state of mind. I know he wanted to sleep until 6pm, but he reasoned and we took a little walk and talk to catch up until he got irritated. He said something along the lines of "I don't understand why you're excited to see me. Why does seeing me have such a value to your life. We've talked on the phone and texted while I've been gone. My friend says that she used to only receive a letter once a week before cells phones came out and that phones have killed the value of relationships".

In English, he's saying that there's a lack of meaning behind today's visit because I was talking on the phone with him last night... And that devalues the worth of seeing your lover's face for the first time in a month. But... when he's at home and we see each other 2-3 times a week, we still text and talk and this "devalues everything" flies out the window. He gets very happy to see me after an absence. Maybe its all the stress of being gone and having to work like a dog. That's my only guess.