feeling......empty.

ex bf in prison wants me to write some kind of letter so he won't get so much time in prison. he's hoping to only get about 5yrs for what he did (which is still stupid because it wasn't that bad but at the same time i'm torn thinking he should have known better, WOULD have known better if he'd watched the news more often) but in order to do that he needs letters from a bunch of people saying he's not a bad person.

he wants me to call his lawyer and get that stuff settled. da fuq...i HATE phone calls....but probably going to do it anyway because if i don't i'll feel horrible. not sure why he and his mom have dragged me into this, i hadn't even heard from him in a few years, and now we're writing letters back and forth while he's waiting for his sentencing...ugh.

anyway...

have been developing a new coping technique...just picture in my mind the problem and sit it in a gift-wrapped box with a bow on the top and sit it away in the back of my memories...T said that was a good thing, categorize and file away the stupid stuff that pisses me off and just leave the good memories...

but have a feeling this will turn sour soon enough...my blocking it out won't be good for me in the long run? possibly...