I called her, I didn't know if she have or not have my phone number. (I dunno maybe I sucks or I was too nervous).
But that doesn't matter much to me, coz she is too busy to help.

I asked if she can give me some suggestion of where to seek help (coz I have nothing in mind, I am pretty blank most of the time) She tell me to try "Family Services of xxx yyy" (xxx yyy = my city)

[I dunno if hold vague hope (by not calling her, not getting answer) is better or not. May be it's not practical enough to support me.]

I will try to call "Family Services of xxx yyy", I hope I can get help, or else I really don't know what to do anymore.

I just want to say to you guys that thank you for replying me and tell me to "ask her to suggestion something else if she cannot help", because i never thought of it (and maybe would never will coz i was too into the problem, cannot think of anything)