i want to give up and give in.
I am getting tired of things again.

I am lost with out a way to go,
I have nothing to help me grow.

I thought i was strong, but i am weak.
I hate that aspect of me, weak, weak, weak.


Ok i am not a poet... and that made me chuckle a bit.

I am a little low right now.

I see no change happening.. and I had hoped for a change at some point.
I am lost at what to do for a change some times for me..... what do art? do walks? I know these little things do well for some small time... but at the same time, i need a bigger change some times i think.


I stood up, got knocked down.
Am not heard by anyone around.

I have been debating with self inside about smoking weed again, but I have not... I keep reminding myself it will not do any good. where will it get me? an escape from reality.

reality will just be waiting for me when I get "back".

Not only that, but the last time i smoked- I was rather paranoid with everything then i just thought -- sure some good thoughts came but at the same time... where will it get me.

I feel like a failure in life, just in general.

I know, stay strong...

keep that chin up, right?

thanks.