Hello

I'm in community college and what should have been 2-3 years in community college is now gonna be 4. The 3 years I was there, I never took it very serious nor did I have a set goal. Now I do have a goal and I know what I want to do, but I find myself struggling with staying motivated (even though I know if I finish, I can finally leave the town I have dreaded since day 1).

There are some days where I am into what I'm doing and I stay motivated, but as quickly as that feeling came, it goes away. And I find myself in a dark hole again, not motivated, not able to concentrate and even struggling to leave my bed. I always feel like giving up everything. And with that feeling comes guilt and a feeling of failure.

I am tired of jumping back and forth with these moods. It is affecting my education. I have missed class so many times (I am so lucky to have a professor who tries to understand at the moment) and have failed classes because of it.

I don't know what to do. Any advice would be great.