Next school year I will be 15. I'm not sure yet if I will be in 10th or 11th grade. But either way I am going to a new school.

I have already been accepted to a good private school. I have many friends there already so I really want to go there. That's where my mom wants me to go.

But my dad is a stubborn *****. And just wants to make life hard for my mom and I. He doesn't like us... He wants to put me in public school because it is cheaper. Therefor he can have more money to blow on his lake house that he wants to force us to move to. (And by lake house, I mean trailer house next to fish poopy water) obviously I don't want to move there...

I probably sound like a spoiled brat. But I just want to get a good education so I can move out as fast as possible and be able to support myself. My dad just wants to get it over with so he can leave us. I don't mind him leaving because he is abusive in many ways... But I just don't like that he is setting me up for failure. And I don't have a say in it.

I think I should be able to at least have a say in this, right?

But no, I don't even have the right to speak. If I don't do something perfect, exactly the way he wants it then I get punished for life. He is NEVER happy with anything.

I'm sure this sounds like no big deal to you, but it's one of those things where you have to be there to feel the pain.

Every night, I think of how I'm going to end it. Every night I lay in bed wondering what would happen if I left. I have a violent thought process now... I did use to be messed up. And my dad started it all. He started the warping of me.

Anyway... I'm super off topic...
My point is...

My mom and I want me to go to Private school.
But my dad doesn't, and he always gets his way.

So......
1) I'm scared of public schools.
So should I be preparing to cope with my worst nightmare?

2) I'm afraid if I stand up to my dad I will end up with bruises.
So should I stay quiet?

3) I tend to see the worst scenario in everything.
So should I just forget about it?
Am I worrying too much?

I don't know what to do. This is just one of the many problems racing through my mind right now...

PLEASE help me. Just a comment or anything would lift my spirits.
It's hard being different