When I first learned about Bipolar Disorder I always thought manic episodes included feelings of general awesomeness… feeling super elated, talkative, high energy, euphoria, etc etc…

Anyway, I’ve been stable on medication for a few months now, very happy to announce that I sometimes think “I’m not bipolar… I was just at bad time in my life” It’s so easy for me to I guess “brush bipolar under the rug” when I’m stable and think that I’m not really bipolar. When I’m stable it’s really easy for me to forget what it’s like to be bipolar… does that make sense?

SO… about a week ago I missed a days worth of medication, and I finally felt what it was like to feel “manic” again the following day. I knew I was feeling way different, knew it was because I went without my meds for an entire day and it was TERRIBLE. I took out my phone at one point and begin describing my symptoms so I would know and recognize them if I was ever manic again… (also to report to my therapist and pdoc) Here’s what I wrote regarding feeling manic:

- Extremely all of the following:
- Irritable
- Impatient
- Anxious
- Indecisive
- Feeling “lost” like I don’t know what to do with myself
- Paranoid
- A general feeling as if “everyone’s out to get me”
- Road rage: Everyone is driving like a snail and it pisses me off

Anyway… I guess this post is more or less just curious if there are other people out there that experience mania in the type of way I do.

I also took note of my hypomanic symptoms and listed them as:

- If & when it happens, it usually happens soon after waking up
- I have an exuberant amount of energy
- Very talkative
- Feeling extremely “goofy”
Ex – Dancing around the room, signing in the shower, making funny faces at my partner, talking about random "goofy" stuff
- Feeling a constant need of attention and affection from my partner

Sorry this was so long… just trying to reach out to people who might also be feeling how I am. Thanks!