I agree with Payne1. I've never seen a psychologist but my psychiatrist kept changing my meds and now I'm doing much better. It took 2 years to get the right mix.
Also correct about it being a real illness. Yes it can be circumstances also don't come down on yourself for being ill.
Can you join some kind of organization where you can meet nice people? Congratulations on belonging and going to a gym. That means you do have strength.
Good luck.