Okay, so I am feeling guilt for who I am. I am feeling guilty for what my body wants. With this guilt comes irrational thought, the more irrational thought the more guilt. I can't stop my mind from racing, so the guilt just keeps on coming, and piling up. I read into little things, things that could be innocent. But I don't see them as innocent, I see them as comments about me criticism about me. Then more irrational thoughts. My hands are shaking as I type this, I keep having to go back and correct spelling and typographical errors, which is making more angry. I don't know if the comments about me are criticism, how can I tell? But my head and heart tell me they are. They throw these doubts into my head and make me think about them. I do not have what you would call a "lot" of self esteem, these doubts, this monologue of people criticizing me, this guilt for something I cant help keeps chipping away at the little self esteem I have.