Unbelievable - It MIGHT not have been that bad of an idea since I am having medication problems (can't seem to find a mood stabilizer that works without causing unwanted effects, and side-effects is the number one reason for me not complying with medication, followed closely by if you have to watch to close if I take it, in that case, keep it, example of how close is too close....Well, good case in point; you want a drug test in general, fine - if you want a monitored one, you went too far, no one gets that, and I have on a few occasions told a judge in a polite way, the court is not getting one either no matter what happens if they don't, they must have figured I was extremely serious, because that issue get dropped as fast as if you grabbed the wrong end of a burning stick) -anyway, back to the point..
Everything looked like it was o.k. - but quickly turned from Help me, to what do I have to do to get you to leave me alone when that doctor decided me clothing could not sty with me in the ER - that is a jester of dis-trust, and as soon as I seen that (and it's the same deal with the monitored drug tests), I really don't care what you have to offer, because now I DO NOT trust you at at all. So instead of allowing anymore after that trust was broken (and the doctor broke it with that jester), all I care abo0ut is getting away from that situation, and then I will down-play, even blatenly lie - just if you are not going to trust me, I can not trust you at all, EVEN IF they do things like that due to the law, I don't care, do it, and I want nothing to do with you, or anything you have to offer. Last time anything came close, it was a search of me stuff that prompted me to say whatever regardless of actual truth, so they would cut the s*!t.
I really don't know, except keep it up, I WILL just forget treating this at all....
When I am asking for help, you act any different than you would if it were a physical issue (and there is no way any of that happens for that) you are history one way or another.
And that's another thing, any admitting for that I also intend to insist woks like a medical place to - meaning no sharing a phone with the whole ward - because medically, I could have my own, and at least the medical hospital I would use, you can use your own cell phone, so that MOST be o.k. - T.V. - again medically, I would have my own so....Visitors, again just like medical during the day, but any or everyday. And even medical I have some gripes with, just not as bad, those gripes are stuff like - N reason to stay there just for an IV, just start the tube, it's screw in fittings on the bags, and it's my house, I' put a nail in any wall I want, and regardless of being sick, I am still read a clock, I would rather handle my own regular medications, thank you, and I know more about how I feel than you do - if I say I can walk, trust me I can - totally shocked a few nurses with that one. Right after waking up from anastesia, they thought no way, but they those few times said fine, go try it, see how far you get - and I actually was walking fine, reflexes might have been slowed, but no more so than having a few drinks.