Hi Jrae ~ Why can't you say this to your parents? Why CAN'T you tell them that you're overwhelmed, that you've been fighting this for years, even though they didn't know it, and you're TIRED -- you've had it, and you're at the end of your rope! I think about the NEXT darn time they said I wasn't trying hard enough to get better, I sure would!

Dearheart, have you tried therapy? Is there a way you can get into therapy? If nothing else, you definitely need an antidepressant! I know we don't want to take medications, but there are some of us who HAVE to. And it sounds like you're one of them. Why be MISERABLE and SUFFER when it's not necessary??

I have clinical depression (severe depressive disorder) and have had to take an antidepressant for about 40 years now -- and I'll be on one for the rest of my life. Without one, I slip into the worst, most horrible pit of hell you can imagine. I refuse to live like that if I don't have to. And it's too hard to fight!

Why should YOU fight this terrible fight? You'll never make it on your own! So it's either therapy or an antidepressant. Please see your doctor -- he/she can help you. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee