Part of the deceit of depression is feelings of guilt that far outweigh the actual situation. As your depression lessens, the guilt will also lessen. Give yourself a break...you are aware and trying...we all make mistakes....and everybody lies. Someone told me that and I didn't believe it...but it's true. None of us are perfect but at least we try.

Also acting as if everything were fine is a great way to move into a more positive frame of mind...I don't call that lying...but acting. It's a proven method!