Thanks Ladies

Yeah i'm trying to distract myself with studies and it seems to be working fairly well because now i'm frustrated by my lack of study progress lol. Well whatever works, and for me I think taking my OH, much as I love him dearly would be a big mistake! He's not good around hospitals or procedures and knowing him he'd likely faint or get put off THAT for a long time :P I had considered asking him to come with me and I know he would despite his own fears but he'd be so tense and nervous he'd make ME tense and nervous!

Love the man to bits but he just can't handle this kind of stuff!

And my durn body had to go and give me my flo visit too! just hope that's gone before the appointment as I really don't want to have to rebook it

And thanks heaps Payne, that's actually kind of reassuring that you're thinking the same as me! I think they might have just gotten from a different area which would explain why it's now high grade. But I was clear during my last smear which was three years ago, so that means a grade a year!

Sheesh am I glad I don't skip them or this time next year would have been a whole nother story . I can cope with the constant check ups afterwards if it means they catch it if it comes back! As uncomfortable and painful as a normal smear is it's nothing compared to the agony of waiting and not knowing!

I'm feeling more relaxed about it now. I know there's going to be pain but with how much medication I take....LOL i'll just make sure i'm all drugged up before hand :P And that should help me stay relaxed!

Thanks for the advice ladies and kind words I'll let you know how it goes.