I called. And I survived lol. I found out yesterday that my abusive ex husband hide over $100,000 from me in our divorce...or tried to. The lawyers apparently found everything and did the court documents to split it, but I just found out it existed yesterday when someone happened to call me and mention it. We've been divorced for 5 years. So its great...they found it and I'll get my half, but it was so unexpected and I know he"ll be PISSED that they found it...so its triggered all the fear of him and all the messages he cemented in my head that I'm the bad one and he's a saint. So I feel like IM doing something wrong, when HE's the one who tried to hide it. Messed up I know. So I called one of the people I have to talk to...now I have to talk to people at his work, which is even more anxiety provoking than the call I made today. I am going to have to put it off til tomorrow though because I have to go take my daughter to gymnastics and they'll be closed before I get back. It'll be a great thing when I get it all worked out