I know exactly how you feel. People even call me a liar to my face. It's like I take two steps forward and one step back all the time so people think I'm either making things up or I just don't care. I try to be as vague as possible so it seems like I'm not trying to be a broken record that goes back and forth. it feels like I'm doing the same things over and over and say the same 'mistakes' over and over. I just don't know anymore. Sometimes i wonder if i'm really emotionally unstable or just a stupid liar who can't even tell if the sky is blue.
I don't think we're liars but it does feel that way.