I was hoping you'd come back and post about your session. I'm glad it went well. That's great she'll let you write to her when you want to between sessions. That's actually been something that's really helpful for me. I think trust is built by sharing a little bit and seeing that she reacts well, and then sharing a little bit more. There are lots of threads on here right now about things that help people feel safe in therapy. Maybe something there will be helpful for you. I do understand the fear that comes up even when T does something good, like not getting upset at you for writing to her. She acted differently than you expected and she accepted you. So even though its scary, things like that do build trust. You reached out, and she was there for you. Keep up the good work!