Jenn, first I want you to know that I only read your initial comment. As one who suffers from BPD, don't let it define you, you are only suffering from this like you would the flu or a common cold.

You, I assume, knew it all along. DON'T let this consume you; it can be treated. I'm the biggest liar on the planet. I alter things so that 'I' don't feel worse. I'm trying to change! So can you!

You are here because you want to quit those self destructive habits, right? That is why I'm here. I eitehr need to learn what a ruler is all about or I need to fix it on my own.