This is really good, thank you. You have not bored me. I think I needed to hear all this. I don't think I 'should' forgive anyone if I am not ready to.

Yes I am sure at some point I will need to deal with me and those things I have done to forgive myself to move forward. But as far as other people, no I have not been able to forgive yet and I have no feeling of ever getting there at this point. It just causes me stress and anxiety when I even think about this.

I had a horrible time growing up. I don't think one can ever forgive the horrors one can do to a child/teenager/young adult.

Thank you all for the feedback. I really do appreciate it very much.