(((((1dar)))))

I'm sorry you are feeling so frustrated .. i know that feeling all too well. Try and do something that will make you happy ... it could me just as easy as reading a book, or looking at pictures ... whatever it is that you can feel a little bit better about yourself/situation. I'm sorry i dont have any great inside on what to say, but just know that i hear you .. and i feel your pain.
ps can i come and hide with you?