it sounds like you need to get some help, especially if you cant keep yourself safe. you need mood stabilization. do you have a pdoc you are working with? do you have friends you can be with that can keep you safe for the rest of the night until you can see a dr.? going to an emergency room would be your best course of action. getting some sleep would be the next best choice. you need to take steps to keep yourself safe and take care of yourself at the same time. that means eat and sleep. take care and keep safe.