Can you let us know that you're safe, Porcelain? This sounds like the best idea to me too, waking your boyfriend up. I often can't find anything good to focus on or calm myself down - so if that's how it is for you and you have a person nearby, use them! Call your dr. in the morning please to ask him / her for help thru this rough patch. I'm not sure what you do with all those awake hours, I know how painful that is, happens for me too. Can you zone out watching a movie sometimes to distract? Ok, let us know how you are.

xxx Grace