I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. I read your bio but couldn't tell if you were getting any treatment.
You've got to sleep. For me it's my first line of defense. Lack of sleep makes me less stable. You say that your mom is a nurse. Have you talked to her?
I know you have posted on this forum. Does that make it any easier?
I have seen that so many people care about you. You matter to all these people.
I hope you feel better