Okay, so I was laying in bed last night, my mind going it's normal speed. But certain things kept on stopping so I could think on them.

One of them was have I been this way all my life? For me things have been bad since August 2010, that is when things got bad. They have gotten exponentially worse since, but that is the date it started. But even before that, I have been told that I was moody all the time, and thought to much, and had mood changes. Could I have been what ever it is that is wrong with me all my life and just not known about it, with August 2010 being the trigger?

The second thing was generational. My father, mother, and siblings don't suffer from this. I don't see them suffering the same or with similar issues. My grandfather, who I never met, was schizophrenic. Is there a chance that mental illness skipped 2 generations and took root in me? The only other option is that I am the first, which isn't a good thought.