Hey everyone…feeling pretty much same as I have been feeling last number of days. Getting progressively worse. Still trying to not succumb to urges…it is draining. I'm getting angry too. Maybe I am fooling myself and just postponing the inevitable i.e. Psych Unit. If I tip over the edge I will have to make a choice.

I hate making hard decisions and I detest my dependency.

Life or death…it's not easy.