I wish that you and everyone here had a good support system IRL through family and friends. Not everyone does though. I've been lucky and had good support most of the time. My biggest breakthrough came when I temporarily lost that support system. I had to go out and do some things all on my own at a time when I honestly didn't think that I could. This meant taking 2 hour bus rides to strange and unfriendly parts of my city to get to a new treatment facility and 2 hour bus rides home. My two biggest problems were agoraphobia and extreme anxiety anywhere including home. Trying this took me way way out of my comfort zone. It was sink or swim time. Get better or lose it trying. I felt like I was on the edge of losing it every second of those first few bus rides. I think you understand what I mean by that. I don't recall if you have anxiety problems or any agoraphobia issues but if you do then you know that 2 hours on a crowded bus is a nightmare. I felt every second tick by. I didn't feel courageous or motivated. I just didn't have any other options at that point. I was lucky enough to be prescribed meds that actually helped. Nothing dramatic but enough for the next steps. At that point my two best friends kind of made it their priority to slowly get me out socially. At first for only half an hour or so and gradually working up to longer periods of time. And when I had had enough they would immediately get me back home. This is what helped me. Eventually I was able to work again and then work and play music part time and eventually play music full time. I was very lucky to have had great friends along the way but I don't think they could have helped if I hadn't started going way out of my comfort zone on my own. I'm not saying this will work for you but maybe it will help. I hope so. It's very hard for me to talk about my experiences with MI and it's going to be hard to hit that submit reply button. I hope for the best for you.