Hi Girl.
That's...a little callous of your friend to not keep in any better contact with you. Granted, I've been guilty of doing the same, but you two seem to have had something very close. You would think that she would at least message you from time to time. That's harsh of her...that's nothing on your part.

I am sorry though that her lack of attentiveness has harmed you so.
As far as the boyfriend goes, I vaguely recall reading something on the Relationships forum (I say vaguely because it was early morning when I read it, and I don't recall the details...I will go hunt it down after this

) regarding him. You may've answered it there, and I therefore may be redundant in asking, but if you do not like him, why are you with him?

If you don't like him, neither one of you are doing any favors to the other by dating, you know? He's not helping you by making you happy, and (not to be harsh or judgmental or anything like that, promise

) it isn't fair to him to invest his emotions into a relationship that isn't reciprocated.
As far as bisexuality is concerned, while I can't say I know precisely what you're going through, as I have never been there myself, I appreciate that it must be incredibly hard for you.

I can't imagine the feeling of thinking that it's somehow necessary to hide who one is, but I know it must be hard.

While I would absolutely defer to the advice of someone who has been through this before and would prefer their input over mine, how do you think your parents would take it if you did tell them? It sounds to me like the difficulty is trying to keep part of you hidden...but at the same time, knowing how people can be, I know that the prospect of telling someone is scary in and of itself.

I am sorry...I wish I could be more help to you there.
Please know, at the very least, you're in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope things look up for you soon.
Hugs, and all of my best,
Harley