Hi everyone

I am writing today because I am trying to figure out if my feelings are normal, or I am I just a bad person. I have not seen or spoken to my mother or brother in about 15 years and have no desire to. People ask me about my family and I tells them taht my dad is no longer alive and I have no idea where my mother and brother. They ask me if i know where they are and why I do not try to find them, and I tell them that I have no idea where they are and they could be 10 feet under as far as i am concerned. People gasp when I say that and say that I do not mean it but I do. After all the abuse that they put me through, I want nothing to do with them. Am I a bad person.....is this normal???? PLEASE HEP!!!!