
Apr 12, 2013, 03:53 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2012
Location: Columbia,MO
Posts: 639
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the last few days I just feel worthless and un loveable as a human being.
some of it is from partners just not giving me the time and attension I need from them. And a lot of comes down to that to some of them all I will ever be is a secondary or Tertiary.
I want and need to find an actual primary in my life i have this from my girlfriend but I don't have it from a guy.
and I keep getting told from people maybe I will ge this and maybe I won't and I am starting to just get sick of it.
my depression has been doing by far the worst that it ever has in quite a while. And some days I get why it does and sometimes I don't
worsely when its a comob of me having really horrible manic episodes as well as being followed almost immediatly by depression, when I am depressed I genuinly dislike myself and sometimes do wish harm on myself even though I have never gotten to that state.
as well as after the depression fades whats left of that feeds into my anxiety.
I am going to counciling and beging going into a DBT program. As well as I am on meds, and recently it does not feel like anything I am going is making a differnce like it used to do.
I am so upset....about this and I just don't feel as if I have any control I hate it!
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Dx:OCD, AD/HD-C and ADD kinda both, General Anxiety Disorder, Separation Anxiety Disorder,Abandonment Anxiety, Cycothymic disorder, or mixed bipolar, Border Line Personality Disorder,Histonic Personality Disorder, Dependent Personality disorder, eating disorder
]Rx:Lamotrigine 25mg twice a day for my mood stablizer as well as I am on Escitalopram 10mg 1 daily, Buspirone 3 times daily 10mgs
VT Student, CNA student, working HHA
for my father I think of you everyday
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