i just started going to see a therapist this year for an eating disorder. I'v never been in therapy before so its all new to me. I have a very hard time opening up to my T, especially about the specifics of how much i weigh, how much i exercise and what i eat.

Well the past month I have just been feeling super discouraged and I have no confidence that I can continue with giving recovery a try. I met with her today and I feel like i was kind of rude to her. She mentioned I was getting really defensive about certain things (I was) and i got mad and told her "well i dont want to talk about that i just want to talk about what i can do to get better, just tell me what to do" then she said I may not like her suggestions and I said "well if i dont like them i will just quit." she just responded "oh if you dont like it youll quit?" and we didn't discuss it further.

now i am feeling like i was such a brat! I can't stop thinking that I was rude to her. I only see her every 2 weeks and I want to email her and ask if i was rude/apologize because its driving me crazy thinking about it but im terrified to seem too needy. (though she has told me multiple times its okay to email between sessions) I just feel like she probably thinks im just wasting her time and that i was rude. what do i do?? do you think I was rude?