Dominic, I don't know what to say, other than that I can't imagine what you're going through. Maybe sit down and talk as a family about what's going on?

You need to want to go on for yourself, not for someone else. The latter helps in those really bad episodes, but you need to find a reason for you to continue; where you want to go. Your family is financially-supportive, so at least you don't have money weighing on your mind.

Really, I don't know what to say, but I felt like I should reply. Let us know how things turn out. I hope for the best.