Hello all...
I don't know about all of you but I get worn OUT simply from my mind...it just wont quit!! Perhaps some of you can help me out...my therapy feels safe to me and I like my T. It has taken about three months but I am finally realizing that I am safe in that room and can( hopefully) begin to do the real work. I am leaving for a week vacation tomorrow...I will miss my weekly session. Since yesterday this began to REALLY bother me. I almost feel lost, what the....?!? I emailed my T explaining that I feel bad about this and that it almost makes me feel homesick...she wrote me a quick reply stating that it is part of the process and she will explain it to me when we meet next time. So why don't I feel better?? I hate to admit it but it makes me feel so needy, like a loser. I wish I would have known these emotions were going to kick in during my last session so maybe she could have given me some insight and some strategies to help me to cope. I am realizing that I have become dependent upon her...I know about transference but is that what this is? I don't have romantic feelings ( yet... ; ) but I do feel like she is an integral part of my life now. How do I not let this interfere with my vacation?
Thank you...and by the way, you guys rock...I read the advice, the insight, your experiences...really awesome!!