My pdoc hasn't given me a diagnosis, my first meeting she said I sound like bipolar, but not quite.

My mood will mostly be depressed/suicidal depressed, it's how I wake up, doesn't change through out the day.

I can come out of a depressed period which can last 1 day to months.

I'll get a few normal mood days and a few (hypo)manic days, they can lead back to depression for a day then back to (hypo)mania, then back to normal, depression. different combos.

If my mood does change in a day it only gets worse from where I started: If I'm depressed I can only get more depressed.

Some times mixed.

Could this be borderline personality disorder?

also I went on paxil for 3 months, I was locked into mania for a full month and it was the longest I've ever been in it. felt amazing! the other 2 months just depression, no normal days or mania in between.

This has only started over a 14 month period, I'm 22 never had any problems.