I am here today. I have been doing ok, but I am finding myself not wanting to go to meetings which I know can't be good. I don't want to drink or drug, but I do feel a bit depressed. Just stuck in that rut again! I guess I just need to start digging out again before it's to late. Some days when I don't do anything I feel guilty. I need to give my self permission to just do nothing, I think. Oh well at least I am checking in here.