Hi,

This must be a terrible time for you and I wish I could say something to make you feel better - I can't. I, too, had my heart broken, experienced betrayal, and could not see anything positive in my life. Still have these moments. I know it is easier said than done, but you must stay away from him. If you can, find some distraction, read, walk, anything...... The guy is bad news, just like the love of my life was. It took me too many years to realize that and the price I paid was (still is) too great. I know it is a platitude and bloody annoying, but time is a great healer. It, at least, dulls the pain. Don't let go of things that you enjoy and are interested in. Sylvia's work may not be the best choice at this time. Again, please take it from somebody who's been there, stay away from him!