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Old Apr 13, 2013, 03:31 AM
Avant-garde Avant-garde is offline
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Originally Posted by nevergoodenough View Post
Could you see a psychologist instead of a school counselor?
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Originally Posted by hamster-bamster View Post
The best would be to have a neuropsychologist administer the Millon personality test
I don't know if this is possible. My parents would have to find out about my feelings. Worse than that, I just realized none of that will help.

The more I really think about it, this really describes the core of my issue:

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The one thing about my thinking that frustrates me more than anything else is my derivative thinking and lack of creativity. I literally cannot come up with interesting or insightful things to say in the context of the average conversation, especially when it comes to smalltalk. I think well within a framework (and so I write well academically), but for me to generate new ideas fast enough to have flowing conversation is something that has always seemed beyond me. Certainly the self-consciousness makes it worse, but it is hardly the root of the problem.
It describes my feelings of inadequacy and why I don't have healthy relationships than others.

And it is fixed. There is no hope, is there? I will never feel comfortable around other people. I will never be able to repair my self-esteem, because this is why my self esteem is damaged. I will never be able to have normal relationships with other humans. This is the first time I have ever felt despair.
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