Well with the fear of abandoment I had a girlfriend once I fell for. She was never a good girlfriend to me and I ended up fearing her leaving too and lost my girlfriend that way. I also lost several of my friends because they thought I belonged in a mental institution. Tink even said that to me before, and it hurt. I don't want to fear her leaving me so much, but I do. It cripples me and I have to ask if she mad or not at me. Anyways nice to meet you, George H. I have a therapist appointment the 5th of May for the major deppression disorder. I am also wanting to get on anxiety meds and actual deppression meds. the meds i'm on now are mood stabilizers and I am still getting deppressed. It doesn't help too my sis blocked my friend when I left my facebook on as payback for something she 12 by the way. Now my friend ignoring my messages and no replies to anything i feel lost friend cause sis actions.