I thank you for posting this post. It reminds me of my son, he is 22 and doesn't know yet what he wants to do with his life after 3 years of college, is on paxil too. I feel bad for kids your age because there is so much to be anxious about, especially if you aren't in a program for something you know you want to do for the rest of your life. Like someone else said, you could try a vocational seminar or something like that. You probably have low motivation because you don't have anything to look foward to when you wake up in the morning. A doc and T would be good too. I also remember when i was in college over 20 years ago, we basically partied all the time which was the worst decision of my life. If you are partying alot that could ruin your life too. Listen to a doc and don't do drugs, if you do, i'm not saying you do, but it is an awful experience. Life can be beautiful and you don't want to miss out on it as you've said.