I don't know if this is possible. My parents would have to find out about my feelings. Worse than that, I just realized none of that will help.

The more I really think about it, this really describes the core of my issue:


It describes my feelings of inadequacy and why I don't have healthy relationships than others.

And it is fixed. There is no hope, is there? I will never feel comfortable around other people. I will never be able to repair my self-esteem, because this is why my self esteem is damaged. I will never be able to have normal relationships with other humans. This is the first time I have ever felt despair.