Yes there are times I don't feel as down, but I can't remember happy. I can remember content, I feel content when I'm with my lover, when I've spoken with her. But she is upset or mad at me, and its eating me up inside. I do watch tv, sitcoms (love Big Bang) and hr long shows that get you thinking. Bones, csi, white collar. I can't concentrate on them though. I usually have 2 or 3 things going on a night, Facebook and this forum, tv, conversation with housemate, and sometimes texting. It doesn't help though. Even playing computer games doesn't seem to help as I don't want to do them. This will pass it always does. I am getting help, waiting for appt. with PCP for referral. Stress just keeps building, the things people say that get analyzed and analyzed and analyzed then twisted into criticism or hateful words. Then there are times like I am in right now, the don't give a flying f@@k mood. The worst part, the part about me I hate the most, the part that no one understands, is I can't tell people how I feel. I can't tell hem that the things they are saying are hurting me even if they didn't want it to. That the things they say never leave my head, and are just analyzed ad nausium.