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Originally Posted by Odee
There might be a little too much of a catastrophic mentality in your posts here, Charactor. What you have talked about are all items that one should be aware of, but being ruined for ever and losing your sense of personality and encouraging someone to stop their medication on a forum like this is a little much. A "I am not your doctor" disclaiming is probably not enough to cover those suggestions.
Anyhow, to the OP: Are you bipolar by any chance? This sounds like it could be a bipolar cycle and if you are bipolar it seems to be common practice to be placed on a mood stabilizer before taking anti-depressants. You could be feeling worse or more anxious if that was the case, due to the lack of mood stabilizer.
Wellbutrin is also known for increasing anxiety, or at the very least is poor at addressing anxiety. It is great that you have pulled out of this depression. For me, however, I will find a pattern of feeling less depressed, but more anxiety, that I believe plunges me back into depression. It is all about working to solve every symptoms to reach stability, because solving only one thing, the problem of another can probably make the first thing came back.
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am I bipolar?
Very possible, I fit the internet definitions to a T for Bipolar II/ultra rapid cycling(mood can change day to day, never during the day).
I only had one like full mania once or twice or thrice, nothing too serious: Bought 1000 dollars in lottery tickets, started looking for mansions and condos, was convinced I was going to become a millionaire, making plans what to do with my money, getting an application for a pladium credit card/black card, picking out my new car, asking people I know what they want me to buy them? Idk if that's full mania...happened a few times.
I got on paxil for 3 months, 2 months of pure suicidal depression, 1 month of euphoria/slightly manic mood. it was awesome.
I saw a pdoc for the first time 2 weeks ago, she put me on wellburtin and took me off paxil cold turkey after 3 months..
my first week was rapid cycling, normal, high, normal, high,normal, Irritated..craving alcohol...driving 90 mph...not doing any work at work....snapping on people(mania?).
this second week, 1 high day, 1 depressed day, rest good mood and normal days.
Wellburtin isn't too bad, longest I've gone without depressive episodes, only had 2.5 in the past 2 weeks opposed to like 80% of a week being depressed.
Only thing I'm worried about now is this damn anxiety, I feel great but I can't leave my room!!!! I've burned all my bridges while depressed, If I could just get past this anxiety...ife will be great. I don't think I need a mood stabilizer seeing as I rarely if ever go manic, I enjoy my hypomania.