It sounds like you're done believing in false hope. Ive been there. Its a pretty hopeless feeling when nothing around you seems real, or if it is, its someone elses party and you werent invited.

Its a hard place to be but it can also be a turning point for you. So you've had it with the false beliefs and empty promises and you dont believe anyone anymore and you might not even be sure if you should be believing yourself?

Its hard and exhausting. Each day you wake up its the same anyway so why bother?

I suppose, for me, I bothered because giving up meant all my beliefs about nothing being worth it would then become true. Id have no one but myself to blame.

Its hard putting one foot in front of the other. If everything is a lie except the one thing youre telling yourself (that its all a lie) then you do have one belief. You believe everything is a lie.

How true is that, really?