I have probably told her a trillion times how much I love her. Even last night on phone told her. Pretty much every single conversation we have had in last 8 years I must have told her at least one that I love her. I mean...6 days before her first date in Jan she told me she loves me and wishes I was with her. This roller coaster is actually a child's play compared to what happened from Jan 2011 to Jan 2013.
I have been told by nons, and pwBPDs, even in these pages, that there is nothing I can do. She is in severe denial and unless she gets out of it, nothing can be done. I have accepted that and I am not trying to fix her anymore. But I don't know why I still make myself available to her. Looking back, all her pulls, recycles, coming back in last 8 years has been when she has been in pain and needed to talk. All her push has been when she is done talking and is fine. I know she truly has no one to talk to and I just can't ignore her when she wants to talk. It makes her feel better but it tortures me. And I live in denial that one day she will appreciate. Afraid she will spend her entire life worshiping her parents and never extracting herself from this hell she is living in.
Thank you so much for replying. After hearing all the guys she has met, talked, and nearly gotten married to in last 10 weeks, I have had a miserable past 24 hrs. Thanks......