Mikey, I do not have OCD but my daughter does and has for most of her life. Do you know about the OCD foundation? Are you in the US? There are places throughout the country that concentrate on OCD treatment and doing computer research is a way to find these places. I wonder if going to ERP might help, exposure and response prevention. Let's say you are afraid you'll murder someone. Then watch a horrid flick about gruesome murder. Turn it off when it gets to be too much and then calm yourself in healthy ways. Walking, physical activity, drawing, anything that helps you feel your relaxed inside self. Next day watch from beginning and go a little farther. Can you understand the example I am using? You can do this with yourself. It is helpful to write down the obsession or compulsion and what might be the exposure and how to give yourself good feedback when you are done. Good luck. The anxiety stinks, I am sorry you have to go through that.