I'll be your friend.
I know exactly what your going through
since I'm going through the exact same thing.
Talk to your Doctor. I'm on 2 meds they work alright
Perhaps you could try holistic Chinese herbs they may help.
Most acupuncture clinics have an herbal doctor.
the Chinese have all kind of herbs for anything.
Also running away doesn't solve anything.
If at a later time you want to relocate out of State
then that's okay. But for now you should try to find out
what might work for you in the mood stabilizing dept.
Although I'm not quite sure what that would be.
Talk to your Doctor.