You're right, I've just about had with pretty much everything. I am done believing things can change, I will change, life will change, all of it. I am done believing I deserve to fight for a life I want. I'm done believing that I am important or that I matter. It's not true.

You're also right about me not wanting to bother with anything anymore. Yes, I do have myself to blame for the outcome of my life, but I can accept this. I know what I'm going through right now is real, it's hard, and it's something that I am not good at dealing with. I have no way out, otherwise I'd have taken advantage of it years ago. I wouldn't have gone this long in the same condition, day in and day out, if I could have done something about it. So, I just accept that I am the blame and that's that.

You've got a great attitude and sound determined to pull through. That's good! I wish that were me, but I've lost hope and I just don't think I'll get any back. It's too late for me.

Thanks for your positive response and the hug. I appreciate it.