It was funny. For the first time I was late because I mixed up the time. I walked in and the doors were open. I thought I was early but I was 20 minutes late. He started by giving a hug and said he was worried about me. I was like "why?" Then I felt bad that I had missed so much of session time and got him wondering where I was.

I'm shifting focus right now toward really depth work. So after some light talk about what's going on, I just jumped into it. He really lives for this kind of work. The pacing though is quite different than usual therapy. It's more like analysis. Very slow and deep. Hard to see where it is going as well. But it is the right time for me to make this shift so I'm doing it. I have a feeling it will stir up things, but I'm not sure how. I hope if I go slowly not too much will surface too quickly.